Do you wonder what your purpose is, if you have a greater purpose, and if so, when will you ever find the time to fulfill it with the mundane tasks and responsibilities calling your name at every turn?
While meditating this morning, I was asking these very questions. I feel called to function a certain way in my life, as a writer, but I constantly struggle with whether this is a true calling or if it is something I just made up. Secondary to that struggle is my battle with time, and where to find the time to carry out these crazy quests of my soul.
The phrase “it’s you” popped into my head. As in, it’s on you, your responsibility, to live out your dream. It’s your responsibility to the world to do whatever it is you are called to do that will help others.
No one else can do it for you. Whatever unique gift you have to share with the world, even if you are unsure of the specifics (like me), you are the only one who can deliver that one specific idea.
I think about Glee, and what if Glee never existed. What if the people who created Glee just didn’t bother, and went on with whatever else they were doing or were going to do. You might think of Dr. Seuss, Steve Jobs, a favorite author, or whoever else you see as a figure who has changed the world by being brave enough to share their ideas and gifts.
Time, Connection, & Fear
All we have is time. Ya, we have unending to-do lists and tons of meaningless tasks to tend to. But time is mine. And I am here for a specific reason, with a specific purpose, that might help someone 6 months or 5 years from now. I will be deciding to spend my time on pursuits that are meaningful to me.
Wayne Dyer mentioned this at the Writing From Your Soul Workshop in Denver last year: whatever you want in your life is already out there. Look around. There are people out there, right now, doing exactly what you want to be doing and living their lives exactly as you would like to be living. The lifestyle you want already exists. You just have to tune into it.
The ideas we need will come, but we have to connect to them. We have to tune ourselves in to the frequency of our dreams to bring them into reality.
Whatever it is that you are afraid of, ask yourself what do you fear more: that, or never being what you dream, and know, you could be?
I am afraid of a lot, but the thing that gets me down the most is the fear of not expressing myself fully in my life. I battle time scarcity, but I know that all I have is time. I have struggled with feeling disconnected from what I want and know I am meant for, but I also know that I can choose, at any moment, to connect to it with my thoughts.
I was reading a blog post by Sarah Dessen last night, about her recent long stretch of struggle to find the ideas for her 12th young adult novel. I am so grateful that she wrote that post, because it reminded me that I already have something in common with a very successful published author in my struggle to string ideas together.
There is Hope!
There is always hope. We can connect with our purpose, whatever time is available to us, and release ourselves from the grips of fear. We have better things to do.
A la Sarah Dessen, I am going to sit in front of my computer, willing the ideas to come to me. Even if, like her, it makes me temporarily sad. If she can do it, I can too.
What are you going to do for your dreams? It’s you who it is up to.