I watched the documentary on Tony Robbins called I Am Not Your Guru last night on Netflix. Wow. Watch it. That’s all I can say.
I didn’t really know much about Tony Robbins, except that he was this high energy motivational speaker. As much as I am obsessed with the self development genre, I haven’t ever read a Tony Robbins book.
Watching the documentary gives us a glimpse into what it is like to attend his intense conference for personal transformation. Just watching the documentary made me want to reflect on my life and what I am doing with it.
This morning I meditated and I imagined that Tony Robbins was talking to me. What would he say? If he picked me out of the audience and had an intervention on my life, what would he say?
Your One Question
One of the exercises at the conference was for the attendees to write down their One Question. The one question that they ask over and over again, because that is the question that is going to shape their life.
I was working on financial stuff and watching the documentary at the same time, so I wasn’t all that deep in thought about it. I didn’t really think I had a One Question.
But this morning while writing I realized that I am CONSTANTLY asking myself:
What do I have to give or contribute to the world that is of value?
What am I meant to be doing with my life?
Who am I meant to be?
What is my purpose?
That’s more than one question, but they all lead me back to the same place: what am I doing with my life? Am I living up to my full potential?
Ok that was more questions. But I think I keep asking them because I don’t feel that I have found the answer. And maybe that is the point. That we keep asking our One Question. And we keep figuring it out. And maybe we keep doing our best to answer it each day. I like that.
In my Tony Robbins intervention meditation fantasy, I imagined me telling him that I wanted to be a writer so I started a blog about 5 years ago, but I haven’t turned writing into my contribution to the world that I wanted it to be because…and that is where Tony Robbins reads my mind and knows why. I don’t have to say it. It’s infused in my energy, and anyone, not just Tony Robbins, would know.
I read ebooks about blogging, blog posts about blogging, ebooks about writing ebooks, blog posts about writing ebooks. Ugh, it’s exhausting and painful to even think about.
But I wanted to make myself an acceptable version of the uniqueness that is me. So be a carbon copy of another blogger who has successfully done it, and an Amazon ebook writer who earns their income through their online efforts.
But I don’t have to be a carbon copy. I don’t even have to follow the model of the bloggers that I have admired (or envied).
Anyone can Google how to organize their closet. I can Google how to organize my closet and find plenty of lovely women who have done an excellent job of communicating the finer points of closet organization.
It is so tedious for me to create a post about organizing. As much as I want to be an internet organizing guru like bloggers I have followed, it is simply NOT ME.
I will organize my closet the best I can, but I am not perfect. And trying to convey that to the world through photos and words is not What I Am Meant For.
Know What You Don’t Want
You know the saying about how sometimes knowing what you don’t want matters even more than knowing what you do want? Yes. True statement.
I thought more about my blog, and how I wanted to create posts to share the unique, healthy meals and snacks my husband and I prepare. Tedious. I don’t enjoy photographing meals, or ingredients, or documenting every single step in the process of making a recipe.
I actually think I should do these types of posts, and then dread putting in the work to create them, and then feel bad about never doing it. Ugh. Enough with the self-torture already.
I think about what I would tell young me 15 to 20 years ago, before I went down the safe path of careerdom. What I would tell my kid someday – any kid. Anyone.
My advice has always been and will always be to find what you love and do that. Eventually figure out a way to make that your life’s work. Because what else are you doing? What else is there?
I know that isn’t for everyone, and I know other people might think I am ungrateful for my career path and the good life that I have. I am not ungrateful. I simply cannot ignore the fact that I want more. I want more than that for myself. And if that if selfish, then I am proud to put myself first.
This is me. I am not perfect. And I am not someone else. I can only be me. At the moment, I am uncategorized, unsure, blog post feature image-less. But happy about accepting that.
Do you have a One Question that is shaping your life? It would be interesting to hear the One Questions of others. Please share your thoughts!