“People are starving for love, not knowing their heart is a magical kitchen. Open your heart. Open your magical kitchen and refuse to walk around the world begging for love. In your heart is all the love you need. Your heart can create any amount of love, not just for yourself, but for the whole world.” Miguel Ruiz
I was first introduced to Anita Moorjani at an I Can Do It, Ignite! conference in San Jose, CA in February 2013. Wayne Dyer introduced her, and there was an obvious buzz in the room from the people who had already heard her story.
Her presence on the stage was peaceful yet powerful. Instantly I was endeared to her unique British accent with something else mixed in, and her wonderfully descriptive explanation of life as she now knows it after her near death experience (NDE).
Dying To Be Me: My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing is the story of Anita Moorjani’s NDE, her life leading up to it, and her new life now that she “knows better” than the old version of herself. The story begins with Anita as a child, and we get a brief glimpse into her upbringing in Hong Kong. From the sound of it, her upbringing in Hong Kong was not all that different from that of a brother-sister pair in the US.
She loved to play and have fun, and she also learned at a young age that girls are looked upon by some as inferior to boys. She loved yet feared her father, and aimed to please her parents even if to her own detriment. She loved her older brother, and was teased by seemingly mean-spirited kids in elementary school for being different.
The Struggle to Please & Live
Anita then moves onto her somewhat unique struggle of having to deal with the sentence of an arranged marriage. Being of Indian descent, Anita’s culture expected her to marry based on the man who was chosen for her, not the one she truly loved. It is at this part of the book where the consequences of people-pleasing start to become apparent.
Fortunately, Anita eventually stood up for herself in this regard. Not long before her wedding to the man of her choosing, her father suddenly passed. This left Anita and her family devastated. She had never taken the chance to repair their relationship while he was still here, and now it seemed to be too late.
In Anita’s adult life, she experienced the loss of two people close to her after suffering with cancer: her very best friend in the world, Soni, and a close family member. She felt and saw the devastation that cancer had done to their bodies and their families. Anita was determined not to get cancer.
Diagnosis of Fear Turned to Love
Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you look at it), Anita was diagnosed with lymphoma. She was devastated by the diagnosis. Despite her best efforts, including a six month stint practicing yoga, meditation, and a special diet in India, the cancer progressed, and wound her up on her would be death bed in February 2006.
Anita’s experience traveling to “the other realm” is inspiring and comforting. She talks about her spirit’s contact with those of her father and Soni. It is in the NDE state that she realizes that there is no judgment or separation. She finally understands the her father’s seeming judgmental ways don’t even exist in this realm. There is only love.
She realizes that she is completely healed of the cancer that has ravaged her body, and finally feels free. No longer insecure or worried about what everyone else thinks, she is completely free.
One of my favorite lines in the book is “Are you crying because of me, mum?” as she is being rushed to the hospital, passing out of her body. She knows she is perfectly fine, better than ever, yet her loved ones are devastated and she wants to console them.
Everything Is Available to Us
Anita’s description of what we think life is like, and what it really is like is the best thing I have ever heard. During her talk at the I Can Do It, Ignite! conference, she held up her hand as if she was holding a flashlight. She told the audience to imagine that the auditorium we were in was completely dark, and we only had the light from this tiny flashlight to see bits and pieces of the room.
Now, the lights are turned on, and you can see everything, she says. You are in an endless warehouse filled with every fine item and color imaginable. She starts naming all the colors and candies and fabrics you can think of, and then colors and other items you have never seen before, you never knew they existed before. But now you do. Now you can see everything.
The flashlight scenario is how most of us are living life. The warehouse with the lights on is how life actually is. There are not limitations.
Where the Power Lies
Anita explains that during her NDE, she was given a choice to either pass on through, or come back to her cancer-ridden body and live out a newfound purpose to share a message with the world. She discusses the difficulty in choosing to come back to the cancer, and then the knowing that she was already healed. That the cancer no longer had power over her.
She had the power within herself her entire life, but, like many of us, she didn’t know, or forgot. Not four weeks later, Anita was declared cancer-free, and continues to be so, and likely will be for the days to come in her life.
Anita came to realize that there is a greater plan, and we are all a part of the larger puzzle. I am sure people could find many reasons to be skeptical of her story, but I am not interested. Why not believe that miracles are possible? I can’t see a reason not to.